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May 11th, 2008
Things seem to have grinded to a halt, although I know it just seems that way. I
spent the whole week at Genevieve's place helping Scott install some kitchen cabinets and doing some
painting for her. Beth (my producing partner) had a difficult time as well this week as she had to
put down one of her cats in an emergency situation. But the great thing about having such a great
producing partner is that she called me up and said that she felt like things had slowed down to a halt.
At least we're on the same page. So we'll be meeting up this Tuesday to set a schedule and get things
going again. I've also committed to a few days of painting for Genevieve so we'll see how things turn
out.
The good thing is that I created a new vision board for myself today so I know that
this will get things going for me again. The most important thing is to use my will to focus on the
goal of achieving a blockbuster hit with my film by the end of the summer.
That's it for now. I'm going to keep this one short and sweet.
ttys - Love Peace Love ~ Elle.
April 27th, 2008
It's funny how things turn out sometimes. This week I went to a networking
group that I usually go to on Thursday nights and I ended up bringing a mentor with me. His
name is Gil Shilton and he's a director and writer and he's directed many many many hit action TV
shows of the 80s. I was like a hero, bringing someone in the group that has so much experience
and success. It felt good.
Another great thing that happened to me this week is that I got my income tax
refund back. It was great especially because I put it out to the universe that I wanted some
money and presto, there it was. It was one of the biggest refunds I ever got. The great thing
is that it comes just at the right time. I'm curious to see where the next big check is going
to come from.
Beth, my producing partner also got a great line on a possible funding source.
She's in contact with a person who used to do some fund raising and he's now looking to get back
in and she's going to send him our script. It's all very exciting.
This week is going to be a mix between helping Scott doing some painting and
cabinet work for his sister and going after some funding money for my feature. It's so much fun.
Oh, ya, and I went to my first LA party on Saturday night. Most of the people
I knew were from the A-Team and Shawn, the woman who does the A-Team was there and asked me if I
would do a presentation to a group of potential A-Teamers. What a great opportunity and a great
honor to be asked to do this.
That's it for now. Have a great week. Love Peace Love ~ Elle.
April 21th, 2008
I didn't get a chance on the weekend to update the Dailies because on Saturday
I ended up going to Ventura to meet with my producing partner Beth. And yesterday I went to the
beach with Scott and the dogs. But let me back up a little bit.
Last week was a very intensive week because it was my last week of the A-team,
the program I came down here to participate in. But let me back up a little more.
As you know, last week I uploaded the teaser onto YouTube and thus began
a push to get the numbers up on the viewing of it. As of the moment that I am writing this,
we have 944 hits! Woo Hoo! The first few days we were averaging about 100 hits a day. I think
we're doing great. Mind you, it's not close to the numbers that I'm looking for but none the
less it is a steady climb which I'm very happy about.
So the beginning of last week was spent getting the numbers up. Then
Wednesday came and it was my last day for the A-Team. On Tuesday night I got an email from
Shawn, the woman who organizes the group, and she challenged me to get the last piece of the
puzzle. The last item which I had on the list of goals for the A-team was to be a stand for
finding the man of my dreams, which I hadn't yet. So she challenged me to do so.
Tuesday night I dreamt of the man of my dreams and then the dream turned
into a nightmare and so I realized the next morning that the reason I hadn't found the man of
my dreams is that subconsciously I thought the man of my dreams would turn out to be a
nightmare, literally. No wonder I haven't found him.
So in response to that I will be taking a workshop with a friend of mine here
in LA on peace between the genders. I'm really looking forward to that.
Wednesday evening was a great time with the A-team. We all had an opportunity
to acknowledge each other for our accomplishments. One of the group members, Matthew, had made
up a nickname for all of the people in the group and he gave me MVP. Wow! I was so speechless at
the accolade.
Then Thursday I had a meeting with Genevieve. She's one of the first people that
I met here in LA and she's part owner of the house where I live. I was looking forward to the
meeting for many reasons the main on being that she was going to be giving me feedback about my script.
Unfortunately, our meeting was rushed because she had over booked herself
for the day. She had very strong opinions and I've learned how to handle these but because of
the state I was in due to the end of the A-team, I felt very vulnerable and took it somewhat
hard. She also asked me if I would consider changing my living arrangements, which again under
normal circumstances this would have been manageable but because of my already heightened state
I got scared. I got home after the meeting and cried.
It took me until Saturday morning to begin moving forward again. Sometimes,
you just have to allow yourself to go through the emotions.
The reason things changed for me on Saturday is because I asked my friend
Julie for help. She was very helpful and helped me begin my recovery. You see the other thing
that has been weighing heavy on my mind is my financial situation. My cash reserve is quickly
depleting and although I have solutions for earning income whilst I create income from my film,
I haven't yet found myself any customers. So of course, most peoples solution for this is to
tell someone to get a job. Fortunately, I am unable to get myself a job in the US unless it is
under the table and I refuse to bend the law for myself in this way.
There are two frustrations I experience with people telling me to get a job.
First of all, I don't want to get a job because that is not what I want to do, and secondly,
as you know, I've been listening to my Bob Proctor CDs on the Secret Science of Getting Rich
and Jack Canfield actually says in one passage that most people think that the only way to get
money is to get a job. In fact, this is how most of modern day society thinks, but the truly
happy people in this world are the ones that do things out of need and passion for what they do.
It's not a job. And so I'm really intent on achieving this for myself. Part of me thinks that getting a job
is the only way to do it as well because that is what I grew up thinking. But that is the old me and the new
me is moving in and so there's a battle ensuing inside of me at the moment but the thing is I
know who is going to win.
So the universe has begun providing. Like I said above, I went to see Beth
and we discussed the next step for 3 Hours and I spoke with her about my meeting with Genevieve,
and the great thing is that Beth is also a writer/director/producer and so we speak the same
language and we support each other and we had such a great meeting and I left there feeling
like a million bucks. I feel so lucky and grateful that the universe conspired to have us meet. :)
Then Sunday I woke in a bit of a worry. I felt like I took a step back again
but I knew that in order for me to make anything happen that I needed to have full faith. But I
also decided that Sunday was going to be my day off and luckily Scott was going to the beach with
Pepper, his dog, and so Lulubelle and I tagged along. I'm so lucky to be living where I am
living and to have the roommates that I have. The drive through Malibu and our
time at the beach was truly re-energizing.
So this morning I woke up and I felt unsure again about my next steps, but I know
where I want to go and I already have a few things that I need to do lined up so as long
as I keep re-issuing my declaration that I have complete faith that things will work themselves
out and I keep taking steps forward with that in mind then it will happen. It's a law of the
universe. It is inevitable. It's just a matter of time that this becomes a habit for me to think
this new way and not the old way. I'm looking forward to the transformation and to be getting
one step closer to my financial goal.
I hope you all have a great week. Love Peace Love ~ Elle.
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