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Elle

Good morning to all! The saying is so true. It only takes a moment for things to change. My life has changed drastically since last weekend.

My boss offered me more money to stay with her. She's moving her office to Richmond Hill and I didn't want to have to deal with the transit of 3 hours a day! So she came up with the idea to lease a car. After thinking about it for a couple of days I thought that the pros were much better than the cons. So I accepted.

I've already test-driven 3 cars and I've narrowed it down to 2. The car that I truly want is the Kia Rio but it's a lot more money than I had budgeted so that leaves me with one choice. The Toyota Echo. Now it's a matter of haggling for a couple of dollars and signing on the line! I'm so excited to finally have a car again!!!

I also took a course on Thursday on how to write magazine articles. It made me realize that it's not what I'm looking for but a couple of great things came out of it. She taught us how to do some research and she brought up a name from my past. He was a teacher of mine at Humber College. His name is Alan Guttman. Well, I tracked him down and I'm hoping to have a meeting with him soon. Perhaps he can help me with my film!!! :-)

Lulubelle has gone in for her operation this weekend. You know "the one"! I haven't weighed her in about 8 months and we put her on the scale. She's a whopping 5 lbs!!!

I miss her so much. It's amazing how such a small thing can really fill up a space and the heart of so many.

I want to thank everyone for the great birthday wishes too. It's wonderful to have so many friends. I love you all very much!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

Don't ask cuz... I'll never tell! Na na na na na! ;-)

It's funny how things can change in a second. One minute we had a full band the next the bass player quit. What is it with bass players? I wonder why we're having so much trouble keeping a bass player? Is it us? Obviously it is but why?

Not to fear though because the next minute I was on the phone and we have a bass player coming in to try out for the band today.

Been working real hard at getting the movie site up and running. I had to change service providers. So that took about 4 days before it was changed over and then I had to make some major overhauling on the site. It's all done now and I can start building up the site. There's just one problem. The mailing list is provided free of charge by a site called Bravenet and it gives the wrong impression when you try to join. Well, I won't get into the details but I don't like it so I've been looking into creating a mailing list myself. Blah, blah, blah. Anyway, it's just a pain in the ass.

Had an opportunity to work on one of my other film project but the person who is the main subject of this documentary is not wanting to do it. So either I have to change it around or hold off until he is interested. Hmmm. Just gave myself an idea.

That's about it. Haven't come up with any back up plans to cover myself financially when my J.O.B. ends. Bummer.

Well I'm just keeping faith that something will give. Have a great week everyone!!! :-)

Wow! It's the 5th already! Are you ready for this year? I am. I've made a decision that this is going to be the best year of my life, and I'm going to make damn sure it is.

I have to admit that the year is off to a slow start. I've been feeling a little stressed at the fact that I only have about 6 weeks left of work where I'm at. That means that I won't have any money coming in after that. My hopes are that by some miracle I will get the money I need to film my movie right after my job ends.

In fact, that's what I was talking to Val about last night. I have been working for years in order to subsidize my true loves and I was telling her that I want to be able to be a professional artist. What I mean is that I want to be an artist full time and make a living at it. Know what I mean, jellybean!

I have a couple of plans in order to make this happen. First, of course, I'm still working very hard at getting the financing for my film. Second, I'm writing a new script that I'm going to attempt to sell. Finally, I'm applying for various grants for artists in the hopes of holding me over until I start making money from my various projects.

Other than that, I've set a few goals for myself for this year. Of course the first is to make my film. I've just spent the last week creating a site for the film. If you want to check it out, click here.

I have a whole bunch of other goals which I will be posting on the My Dreams page. Don't go looking yet because it's not there. I'll let you know when I've posted it.

Well, I hope you all have a fantastic year. As a couple of my friends have told me already, I wish you all a Happy, Healthy and Prosperous year... heavy on the prosperous please!!! ;-)   ...and may all of your dreams come true!!!

I want to wish all of my friends and family A Very Happy New Year!

I started trying to do a daily update but I haven't been able to keep on track. I'm going to attempt it again this week.

Hope you all had a great Christmas. Mine was fantastic and it's lined me up for a great 2003. I have a good feeling about 2003 and I hope your dreams come true for you as well.

I've been working hard at designing a new website for the film. It's just about done. I hope to finish the design today and to upload it by January 1st. I hope to get the ball really rolling after that.

And that's about it. Pretty dull huh. I guess I've put the film on hold cuz of Christmas and all that.

Went caroling last night. I don't know why but I just love it. It was so much fun. There was about 200 people just singing and having a good time. And of course Santa showed up. Always crashing a party!!

Didn't make any progress with the film last night but I did get to talk to a good friend of mine. Good friends are so precious aren't they. Ya!

So I'm going to try making updates daily. This is my first day. We'll see how long this lasts right?

I've come across a road block! I've been working on designing the site for WS (FYI: that's the short hand I'm using for my film - Wolf In Sheep's Clothing) and I'm having trouble finishing it off. So what do I do about it? Well, two things...

1 - is that I'm starting to work on the content. I told myself that the site doesn't have to be perfect right off the block. It can be a work in progress. Besides, I know I have this problem with perfection, so I keep saying to myself: "Progress, not perfection, is what I am asking of myself".

2 - The other thing I'm doing is asking for help. HELP! If there is anyone out there interested in helping build the site for WS please let me know.

I feel better already! Have a great day everyone!

I know. Two weeks have gone by. I've been frustrated again and that's probably why I didn't end up putting an update last week. As per usual it's the movie again. Don't get me wrong though, I still love it. I'm just starting to feel lots of pressure because I still don't have money and every day brings me closer to the date that I want to film. I'm going to have to make a decision soon whether to postpone the production date again or not. I don't want to but I'm going to have to face the reality that it might not happen. However, I'm trying not to focus so much on that and keep making steps forward. I also believe in miracles so perhaps this is a time that things will happen. Let's all cross our fingers.

I've come up with a marketing scheme for getting a buzz going and getting some money for the film. So, I've been spending the last two weeks getting things set up.

I've also met a potential writer for the book based on the film. I got connected through a mutual friend... thanks Michelle! He just starting out which makes me very excited. After all, that's one of the points off all of this, is to find other people like me and help each other out. I hope it works out.

I also had a meeting with a friend who read my business plan and project proposal. Got some great feedback.

Went to a party last weekend and I met more people that were interested in the film. So that part of it is going well. The word is slowly getting out. :-)

As for the music... we found a new bass player. I'm not confident at the moment that it's going to work out but I'm just going with the flow on this one.

As I said earlier, I've stressed myself out again but I caught it in time this time round. I've got to learn not too push so hard. Actually, I've got to learn when to push and when to lay off. There have been a couple of instances where I should have pushed but I didn't. Huge learning curve, but I am learning and having a good time at that. Well, I hope you all have a great week. Hope to see some of you at my drop-in. Love, Elle.

Oh My God! December! It's here! The festive season. The parties. I am so looking forward to this!

Things are going amazingly well. I'm very happy. I've taken the pressure off of myself and I'm feeling good and every day I take baby steps towards my dream. I've come up with a marketing and promotion strategy which is contingent on the next draft of the script. I'll tell you more about it when I get there.

In the meantime, does any one have a friend who is an aspiring writer? If you do, please let me know. I have a great project for them.

We've gotten good response with an add we put in the Now magazine for a new bass player. We'll be trying them out next week and hopefully be back to full production after that. Cross your fingers.

That's it for now. Have a great week!

Oh My God! I can't believe Christmas is only over a month away! This year I planned to have the best Christmas ever and I started at the beginning of the month. I think I freaked a few people out! I decided to send my Christmas cards out early to get in the mood.

Well, I have found a new vigor. The past few days have been very interesting. I've had some pretty good things happen and some pretty bad. I have spoken and met a few new people that have really already added to my life and the pursuit of my dream to make my film. All at the same time, I've had some people drop out of my life as well. It's been very strange, and it all came to a head last night.

I was feeling very down all day yesterday because my bass player decided he wanted out of the band. He showed up at band practice without his bass and told us that he was leaving the band.

Well, it really hit me Saturday morning and swelled during the day until I started talking to someone new. Then I decided to take myself out for an artist date. I went to see the new Harry Potter movie. I loved it of course (as I knew I would). Something wonderful happened afterwards. I had an enlightenment. I realized last night that all the things that have happened to me in the past few days, in fact all that has happened to me in the past few months have been incredible.

Whenever something bad happened I always said to myself that it was a blessing in disguise. Well, now I realize that everything that has happened to me my whole life has been a blessing in disguise. Things happen for a reason. Sometimes I can't figure out why but I know this, I am very happy. All the things that have happened in the past few days, months and years have brought me to this exact place. I truly feel that I have reached a pinnacle, a turning point in my life. I feel like my life from now on will be charmed.

I know it sounds weird and bizarre, but it's a feeling that I have. One of the brilliant pieces of advice that my friend Anneloes has recently told me is that I have to allow my project to grow. Not to push it so hard. Every morning, I have read these very words out loud to myself. Let it grow. Enjoy the moment. Apparently, if you say things out loud to yourself your mind, I guess your unconscious mind, starts believing it. Be careful when and where you start talking to yourself though because you might cause people to have concern for your mental health! ;-)

Well, only time will tell if my insight is true or not. These past few weeks, I have taken some time to do some attitude adjustment and I believe it is starting to pay off. As some of you know, I was sick a few weeks back and I truly believe it had to do with me stressing myself out. I want to make my dream come true so badly that I was pushing really hard. But I now realize that you can't force things to happen. They will happen in their own time. All you can do is do your best at the time that you are doing it.

One more thing. As some of you might have noticed, I had moved some information away from this page. I got scared because of something that someone had told me. But I realize now that I am not being true to what this site is about. Part of the purpose of this site is to document my journey toward my dream and if I put a password restriction on what I say then I am not being true to it's purpose. So I have now returned this section to its rightful place.

I hope you are all having a wonderful weekend!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROBERTO AND PHIL!!!

Yesterday was an amazing day! I've finally come up with my pitch. It's great! And I also came up with a new ending to the script. It's brought it up to a new level! I'm so excited.

I've been recovering all week from a cold that hit me very hard, so I haven't been able to work on my project all week. I guess it was a blessing in disguise. It gave me a week holiday from the project and it's allowed me to have a new fresh perspective. This coming week will be great. I've got lots planned.

One last thing. I finally got my new URL for Elle Filme Inc. It's http://www.ellefilme.com and if you haven't checked out the site, please do so. I would love to get some feedback.

Things are falling into place, slowly but surely. The thing about things going slowly is that I know that it's forming a really solid foundation.

I'm really looking forward to what next week has in store for me, but the most important part is that I have to get rid of this cold!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER!!! Hope you have a great day!

I met with a new DP on Friday and we had a fantastic 2 hour conversation. I also had an email interview with another DP. So far that's 3 and they are all fantastic. There are a couple more DPs I want to talk to before I make my final decision but I hope to make that decision within the next week.

I also made a phone call to a person I used to work with. I was hoping to get some feedback about a strategy for enticing investors and what I got was a million times better. First of all, he was extremely supportive, you can't ask for better feedback than that. Secondly, he gave me a whole slew of great new ideas which I will be implementing next week. And finally, he promised to explore his connections. Thank you.

I also got a couple of leads for a location which I will be pursuing next week.

Things are falling into place, slowly but surely. The thing about things going slowly is that I know that it's forming a really solid foundation.

I'm really looking forward to what next week has in store for me, but the most important part is that I have to get rid of this cold!

It's been a bizarre weekend for lack of a better word. In two words, I'm sick. It's the first time I have gotten ill in about a year, so I'm pretty happy about that. I figure it's a result of having taken really good care of myself.

Last year when I was ill all of the time, I went to see a doctor and he told me that there are three factors that come into play when it comes to being ill. One is your physical fitness, the second is exposure and the third is stress levels (which affect your immune system). In order to get ill, you have to have 2 out of 3 of these factors. I know that my physical well being is great, and obviously I was exposes to a bug so I believe I got ill because of stress levels.

I've been having to take some time to rest and it's given me the time to reflect on how I've been living my life lately. I know I've been putting myself under enormous amounts of stress. Is it all really worth it? Yes!, however I've decided to re-examine how much stress I wish to put myself under.

I just recently exchanged a couple of emails with a new friend and he told me that he doesn't live to work but works to live. I don't believe in either. If you are truly following your passion you should be playing to live. That is my philosophy.

So, I've made a conscious decision to not worry so much about things. Whatever happens, happens. Besides, I know that things will happen for me. I really do. I have faith.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LULUBELLE!!!