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I'm back from my vacation. People usually say that their vacations are over way to fast. Or is that me? :-) Anyway, I didn't feel it this time.

It was a really inspiring trip. I went to Orlando and I did all of the typical touristy things. I went to Magic Kingdom, MGM, Seaworld, Kennedy Space Center and I went to a Cirque du Soleil show called La Nouba. The whole trip really had a magical feel to it.

I'm saying it was inspiring because all of these places and shows are based on people having dreams and making them come true. What was most inspiring was the Kennedy Space Center and La Nouba.

At the Space Center, I heard accounts from astronauts about spiritual moments that they had out in space. They were all in awe as to the power of the human spirit. One astronaut went so far as to say that whenever he talks to children, he makes sure to tell them that the word 'impossible' doesn't exist and that they should go home and strike it out of their dictionaries. If he could walk on the moon, then anything is possible. He should be telling adults this as well!

La Nouba was the most amazing show I have ever seen in my whole entire life. It was really outstanding. I mean it really stands out. I'm inspired because this all started with one man's dream.

So now I am refuelled. I know that anything is possible and that my dreams will come true and that I must set my standards very high so that I can make someone else feel as high as I was and keep the cycle going.

LPL

It's funny how life works out. I had a reminder this week that not everyone understands what I say or do. For example, I uploaded my films on the website Triggerstreet. For those of you who don't know, Triggerstreet is a website where you can upload your films and have people critique them. It's a great site because you're assured of getting at least two critiques as you have to critique two films before you are able to upload one.

I uploaded one of my films a few months ago and I've had I think about 12 to 15 critiques so far. I'll tell you, they range everywhere from "absolutely brilliant", to "I just don't get it".

The saying goes, "...you can't please all of the people all of the time". Thank god you can't because otherwise this would be a really boring place to live in. But who should you please? Lots of people say that the most important person to please is oneself. I agree, to a certain extent.

But, what of those people that are close to your heart. Doesn't it just kill you when you aren't able to please them? I know it does for me. So, what should I do?

And what about people that are able to please many people at the same time? Like filmmakers and rock stars and movie stars. Is that just luck or is there a formula? If there was a formula, I would love to know it but then again I wouldn't. It would be too easy and boring, but I must admit that I'm tired of working so hard and for so long and not being able to even break even. But what can I do? I can't stop. If I stopped doing what I love to do, I would die. I really would. So I guess I just keep doing what I've been doing and have faith one day I will be able to please many, many people.

Well, that's it for now. 3 days to my vacation! See you on the flip side. LPL

Well, I had a good week. I've started writing my script for the feature that I want to shoot this summer. I'm working on the story arcs at the moment and it's a lot of fun. I find it difficult to change gears, meaning going from post production to writing. It's a whole different head space. But I welcome the change. I thrive on change.

Val, Hugh and I are in the midst of working on a new idea for an internet broadcast network. It's all very exciting. I'll tell you more about it as it unfolds, but it looks like we'll be doing Frequency as one of the shows.

It's interesting then what happened to me at work this week. Actually, it was Friday. My company is preparing a 1 hour show that will be broadcasted across the country to specific locations. It's not for public viewing and you wouldn't want to see it anyway because it's a training program.

Anyway, the interesting part of it is that I had to do a welcome video for part of the broadcast. I loved it. I thought I would be really uncomfortable having to look straight at the camera, but I really loved it. It's hard to describe why but it's almost like a drug. I want to do it again and it looks like I will when our network launches.

Well, that's it for now. 10 days to my vacation! See you on the flip side. LPL

I've had a few interesting things happen to me over the last couple of weeks. First of all, I met a sound person who has a technical background. The reason this is interesting is the day before I wrote in my journal that I wanted to meet a technical person to help me with sound. How wild is that!

Last week I ended up doing Val and my show, Frequency alone as she was fighting off a pneumonia. It was interesting because, the last time I had to do an interview alone, it was very scary but this time round I felt ready and I didn't fret about it. Apparently it was a good interview, which was strange because it didn't feel like a good interview when I was doing it. It was really bizarre because Maxell, the person I interviewed, would be really relaxed and forthcoming when there was a song playing and we weren't on air, but as soon as our mics came on, he would turn into this other person that was really hyper and nervous. Weird.

I also ended up interviewing her filmmaker as he didn't get the message that the show was cancelled. It was a great interview and I think I made a great connection.

I just sent Coffee Break to a couple of film festivals. The great thing about film festivals is even if I don't get picked, I'm getting my name out there.

And then this week, the band we were to interview cancelled at the last minute and so Val talked me into bringing some of my music and being interviewed by her. It was fun being on the other side of the interview.

The woman she interviewed for her film show has shot a feature film on her own and she edited it as well. She's also written a book. This gave me a swift kick in the butt. I'm making my feature this summer and it's going to be totally outstanding.

That's about it. I'm going on vacation in a couple of weeks so I might not be updating my dailies for a couple of weeks. Until then, have fun and see you on the flip side. LPL

My birthday was a couple of weeks ago and every card I got said: "I hope all of your dreams come true". It puts a smile on my face. It also reminds me of my grandmother. When she was alive, she would wish me the same on all of my birthdays. She would also wish for me that I would find a really nice boy. :-)

Then I started thinking about that. What is it about dreams? Why doesn't everyone think the same way? Whenever I get to know someone new, one of the first things that I ask them is what is your dream? You know, some people tell me that they don't have dreams. Why is that? I think it's because some people don't believe in dreams or they don't believe that they deserve to have a dream or for it to come true or maybe even that they are too afraid that if they dream that it will come true.

Then there are people who do dream but don't feel like they deserve to have their dreams come true or, again, that they think that dreams don't come true. Are they fating themselves?

Then there are people like me that believe that dreams come true and that have dreams but put road blocks or hide behind some blocks. Some of the blocks that I've put in my way are: sex, drugs, relationships, friendships, other peoples problems, perfectionism, not believing in myself, poverty, fat, hiding in my apartment, boredom. Wow! Talk about a lot. Basically it's what Tony Robbins calls letting life get in the way.

Over the past year or so I've realized many of these things and I've moved them aside. My resolve it to make my dreams come true. What is the point of living if your not going to make the best life possible for yourself? I know some people feel like their life isn't interesting enough unless they have a lot to complain about. They want people to feel sorry for them because when they do they draw attention or energy to themselves. I know there was a time in my life when I felt this way.

I truly believe that I must get my name out in the world and get people to notice if I am to make my dreams come true. But is that another road block that I'm putting in front of myself? In a sense, I have had my dream partially come true. My dream to make movies. So far, I've made 3 and I'm just finishing my fourth. So why don't I feel satisfied?

Maybe the point is not to feel satisfied. It's to keep on moving. One thing that Tony says is that if your not climbing, your falling.

Beyond that, I know that another part of my dream has not come true. That is to make lots of money so that I can take care of friends and family. How do I make this come true? I know that every day I get a step closer to this part of my dream, but is there any way to make it go faster? Don't you wish you had all the answers? I do but then, I think it wouldn't be much fun if everything would be easy.

I almost feel like Carrie Bradshaw from Sex and the City writing in this way. That's so funny. Anyway, I hope you all have a fantastic week. Write to you on the flip side. LPL (love peace love)

I started writing an update last week but I got interrupted by a phone call and I never finished it so I deleted the one line and I'm starting again today.

I've been struggling with a couple of things. The first one, concerning this website, is as follows. The goal of this site is to justify the statement that dreams come true. I have big dreams and I've been a dreamer all of my life. Many people have told me that I should stop dreaming but as an adult, I've decided that dreams are the most important. Without dreams and without the people that believed they could make their dreams come true, we would still be living in caves!

So, in support of this goal, I've created a site that included many of the things that I believe help me and supports me towards making my dreams come true. The second support is this page. This page is meant to be a testament as to the daily events that will lead to my dreams being reality.

So here it comes. Here's one of the things that I've been struggling with. You see, I'm a positive person and I believe that being a positive person will help you move forward. I want this to be reflected in this section. However, life is not perfect. What I mean is that things happen and they affect me. I've always tried to keep these ideas or events away from these pages because I don't want anyone trying to distort the fact that I truly believe that dreams come true. Because of this, there are time when I don't update these pages.

So the struggle is: Does this make sense? I don't live in a bubble and neither does anyone else. Good and bad things happen to good and bad people. I believe that what is most important is not what happens to people, good or bad, but how you deal with it. How you interpret it.

So. Having said (or written) all of this, I am deciding right now that I will no longer judge what I am about to write in the dailies. I will open up and put down all that is going on with me. Good and Bad. To a certain extent of course. ;-)

So there you go. I'm starting a new chapter of the Dailies! BUT, you'll have to wait until next time to find out if I write any "bad" stuff. ;-)

That's about it for now. LPL (love peace love)

Hey! Well, if you live anywhere close to Toronto, you're enjoying some pretty crazy weather, as I am. It's freezing cold and we're having a huge blizzard. I'm so lucky to have a nice warm apartment.

I got a call from the CFC. They recognized me from last years submission and they asked me if my script had changed any form last year. The reason being that the selection committee is the same and so their decision would be the same. Wow, just from that I now know what they base their selection on. :-)

Anyway, the good thing is they recognized my name, which was one of the reasons I applied to them. To get my name out there.

I told them that the script had significantly changed, as it has, and so they will proceed with the analysis. :-)

Last night I had the actors from the last film I shot come over and to some ADR (additional dialogue recording). We had a lot of fun, but basically what this means is that I can now finish the film. Should only take me another week.

That's about it for now. LPL

Can you believe it? We're already half way through the month!

So, I finished my application to the CFC for their FFP (Feature Film Project). I promised myself this time around that I would let go of it once it was in. Last year I worried and worried and of course it didn't serve me. So, in my mind I figured it was like baking, this time around. I mixed all of the ingredients together and put it in a pan and threw it in the oven (the CFC). Now I'll just keep busy with other things until the timer goes off and it's done. I'm not going to sit in front of the oven to watch it bake. :-)

Now my plans are to finish the last film I shot, and to submit a film or films to another film festival. After that I'm going to focus on writing a script for a film I want to shoot this summer. :-)

I came across a saying, that is supposedly from John Lennon, last week. It goes something like, "Life is what happens when we're busy planning." I like that. So, I'm going to remember that I'm living my life every day, even when I'm planning. Does that make sense?

One thing I noticed about my process this time around for my application to the CFC. I felt a calmness and confidence that I had not felt before in this kind of circumstance. It was wonderful and it allowed me to really enjoy the process as well. Not only that, amazing coincidences happened as well. It was all so much fun. :)

Oh, one more thing. I've decided to take a dance class. The reason that I mention it is that I figured something about strength confidence and changing my mind set so that I've got all that it takes to create the life that I want to live. You see, there's a belief, which I subscribe to, that says that whenever you're feeling a strong emotion, you can link it to a physical move by doing that move over and over while you're feeling the emotion. Then later on, you can bring back that emotion by doing the move. Well, I've also expanded this idea for myself. I know that when I was singing in a band or when I went dancing that whenever there was a song on that meant a lot to me that the combination of singing it out loud and dancing and doing power moves, really changed my mind set. This is what I want to achieve by taking my dance class. :-)

That's it for now. Have fun! Love Peace Love... Elle

Happy 2005! I wish everyone happiness, adventure and success for 2005! :-)

Let me start with what I've been up to. Aside from enjoying the holiday season, I've submitted a script to the Female Eye Film Festival: Female Eye Screenwriter Program. The deadline was December 31st! Talk about a crazy deadline. Anyway, if I get accepted, I have an opportunity to 1) have my script read and 2) have an opportunity to meet industry professionals and possibly get representation. Very exciting.

I'm in the midst of preparing a submission to the Canadian Film Center again this year for their Feature Film Project. If I get accepted I have an opportunity to produce a film for $1/2 million!!! Very, VERY exciting! The deadline is January 14th and I'm just about done.

As far as 2005 is concerned, one way or another I will be producing a feature film. I am very excited about it. So once this application is submitted, I'm going to finish my last short film, which I've been putting off and then I will focus on writing a script for the feature that I will be shooting in June. I'll also be submitting my shorts to various film festivals.

I'm also continuing co-hosting my web radio program this year, with my best friend Val. You can listen in on Saturday evenings at 7pm at natradio.com.

Looking back on 2004, I feel very lucky to have been able to achieve all that I have, especially having been able to shoot my 4 shorts and doing the internet radio show. Aside from my career aspirations, I'm very grateful that I've been able to do all that I have under the blanket of a job which has also aloud me to recover somewhat financially.

I feel I've done a lot of ground work and planted the seeds to many great things career wise, spiritually, financially and emotionally. My dreams have no choice but to come true this year!

Have a great week! Love Peace Love... Elle

So far, I've gotten 3 reviews on Triggerstreet for. Coffee Break. They're all amazing! I uploaded them on my film website. Just go to the main page ellefilme.com and click on Reviews under Coffee Break and you can see them.

I've also been reviewing films on Triggerstreet and I'm pretty proud of what I've created so far. You can read into that whatever you want. ;-)

That's it for now. Still working on my voice CD and my last film. I'm also getting ready to put in an application into the CFC like I did last year but this year I'm feeling very confident about my chances. :-)

Good Morning!

I'm not sure where to start or what to say. I've been studying synchronicity this past week and I am just amazed at what the possibilities are. The more I open myself up to coincidences the more they happen.

I've also been studying energy, since the whole universe is made up of energy at the ground level. The possibilities that arise from this point of view are endless.

I've been adopting a new view on life, that every moment is an adventure into the unknown and this releases me from the know.

I've started working on the last movie I shot again. Last night I locked the picture and although it's not everything I wanted it to be, it's not bad. With editing, I've managed to put something together that I believe is watch able. But I've definitely learned a lot by making many mistakes on this one. I love making mistakes. Although they are frustrating when they happen, they also let me know that I am doing something and the lesson I learn from them is exciting. I love learning.

The next step is for me to put some music to to my movie. I want to put something more hip hopish this time around.

I've started doing a body cleanse as well and the results are amazing.

I also started creating a voice CD to get some voice work to supplement my income.

That's it for now. ttys

Hello to everyone! It's been a couple of weeks and I have a good excuse. Last weekend I went to Ottawa for my sister's 29th birthday. It was fantastic. It had been a very long times since I saw my sister on her birthday.

So many wonderful things have been happening to me since the last time I wrote. I've been studying the Experiential Guide to the Celestine Prophecy. My life has gotten extremely interesting because I'm experiencing all kinds of coincidences. I've noticed that more and more, every time I have a question, something comes up that gives me the answer. There's also been times when I was talking about someone and the phone would ring and it would be them. Who knows where this is going to lead to.

I've also decided to look into buying a house. As some of most of you know, I'm still trying to pay off some major debts so this is quite a humorous decision. I have faith that something will come from my efforts.

I guess it's already happening because I realized after completing a questionnaire, that I don't even make enough money to make payments on a house. So I'm going to do one of the things that I've been meaning to do for a long time. I'm going to make a CD of my voices and I'm going to get some voice work.

Also, I've decided to apply to the CFC (Canadian Film Center) again for the Feature Film Project. As some of you might know I applied last year and I didn't get in. This year, I have a lot more experience which will increase my chances.

I've been saying to myself for a while now that when it comes to film, the most important thing is the story. Well, never has it been more evident than this week. I went to a friend's film showing which was a documentary on kids who stutter. Technically speaking I felt the film left a lot to be desired. But the story was so compelling and it touched everyone's heart that saw it. It won him several awards and it touched one person so deeply that he has made a $1 million donation to the cause and is planning on donating much more.

This, in a sense, is what I am looking for. I believe that the most important thing about film making is that you make something that says something. I mean, a film has the opportunity to capture someone's attention for 1 1/2 to 3 hours! What an incredible opportunity that is to say something meaningful, or to change someone's life, or to help someone forget about their life for a while. I'm so excited about this. I never looked at film in that sense before.

One last thing. Since I decided (and wrote - see below), that I was going to take my time and luxuriate in the moment of getting ready for my radio show, I've decided to expand this view. Luxuriating in the moment, for me, means that I am in the moment and I don't worry about "the next thing" I have to do. Also, as a perfectionist, I never let things go. I beat them until there is no substance left. I've decided to let go.

Well, these two things combined, have made a new person out of me. I don't feel stressed like I used to and shockingly enough I don't feel like time is racing away like it used to.

Well, I hope that you have wonderful moments now and in the future and check out a couple of things I added on the left column under "New".

Hello to everyone!

I had quite the week! I had major revelations, last Saturday as I was preparing to go do my internet radio show, Frequency when I decided I would allow myself to luxuriate in the preparation. The reason it came up was that I dressing up in a Halloween outfit. I was a mummy.

What an insight that was. It felt so good and all the stress I usually feel in getting ready for the show were gone! I decided that I must enjoy every moment that I'm in instead of thinking an hour ahead or a day or a week or a year. I was missing out on all the wonderful moments in my life.

This is all coming from the work that I've been doing with Tony Robbins and by re-reading the Celestine Prophecy. What a great book.

On Halloween night, my friend, Lorri, and I went out in the neighborhood to see if there was anything interesting happening. We came across a house a couple of streets away from where I live that every year he puts on a fantastic display. He had a car in front of his house that was decorated with dead body parts and a school bus decorated the same way. Between his house and his neighbors house he had an old tub that was filled with blood and dead body parts. There were body parts sticking out of the ground. He had a casket with a dead body in it and all the way down between the houses he had many more goolish things. At the end of the alley way he had a Jason character sitting there. As we turned around and headed back to the street, the Jason character came to life and scared the Shit out of me. It was totally thrilling!!!

On Monday night, I went with my friend Val to see Deepak Chopra. Val and I initially discovered Deepak in an interview that Tony Robbins had done with him. It was an electrifying interview that changed both Val and I forever. So when I found out that he was coming to town and that they were offering a chance to have a reception with him and an opportunity to speak with him, I didn't care how much it was going to cost. I was going to do it.

I was expecting to meet Deepak and that something wonderful would happen. But what happened was not at all what I had anticipated. First of all, he was there for a book signing. I didn't have a book and I didn't want to get one but I did want an opportunity to speak with him. So I got into the line with Val. We ended up speaking with 3 other women that were on a similar path as I am. They all had read the Celestine Prophecy and had a similar experience to it as I had. They all knew of Tony Robbins and one woman had even done a few of his seminars.

Then I had my opportunity to speak with Deepak. I shook his hand and thanked him for the work he has done and that it has affected me in a very positive way. To my surprise, he didn't say much. I was in total shock. But for some reason I wasn't disappointed.

I have since realized that everything that I thought I was going to get from meeting him and from him, I already had within me. All the work I have done to make myself and my life a wonderful experience is beginning to pay off. I didn't need him to move me forward, but I needed to meet him to discover that I was moving myself forward. I'm in ecstasy at this discovery.

As you might know, I finally got around to submitting three of my films to a couple of web sites (ZED, 120seconds and Triggerstreet). If you can, you should especially check out the ZED website. You can do a review of my films there and vote for seeing them on television.

• Coffee Break on ZED
• Sisi's Dream on ZED

I'm also in the process of uploading the films on my film website, ellefilme.com with production notes.

Have a fantastic week! and catch you on the flip side! :-)